Parade.

Change is a scary thing.

I've summoned my inner Rory Gilmore and started a pro's and con's list about some ideas for 2010. At this point, it seems to be a battle between materialistic things and possible experiences.

Some of these studio apartments look suffocating.

I think about a life of walking and public transportation and wonder if I've even capable of it.

The things I have planned seem to be for a completely different person. Which reflects how discontent I am with my living situation, which brings us right back to how scary change can be.

Music is the only love.

Hearing "The Pink Lavalamp" yesterday was one of the greatest feelings.

Homecoming.

I took my second trip to Chicago this last weekend, and I miss it.

This last trip, despite being a bit rockier, really solidified how I feel about Hannah. On the ride back to the airport, I honestly felt a bit choked up (ofcourse I hid it, being a man and all). We had what I would of considered a bad day and a half or so before that, yet through that the thought of leaving was still very painful.

I think we're hitting a point where we're each uncovering the person we thought we knew back in May. There are many flaws I've showed, and I wonder how things will end up. We've never sat down to really discuss any sort of "outcome", we just know that there are trips booked.

Part of me also feels a bit "behind". I feel like I'm beginning to have feelings that she had already showed on the last trip. I don't mean that in any sort of negative way- the word "love" predates the time I'm talking about. But driving to the airport this past time was as difficult as I imagine driving to the airport in September had been for her.

At this point, I feel extremely "blessed" (in an Atheist/no thesaurus type of way) for the events of the last few months. I also feel some regrets, but I feel fortunate to have these regrets before its too late to correct them!

The Hideout.

If there's ever a radio show that has inspired We Hit & Run, it's The Hideout.

Seeing that video above with only 400-500 hits is just mind boggling to me. There's quite a few videos from the classic Hideout shows back in 2004 that also have view counts lingering in the 100-200s.

It's just crazy to me that I've produced radio-themed or stunt videos with more hits. I've looked at these old archives of The Hideout as something of radio legend.

I do think that a lot of radio material does not translate well to youtube. I find these videos most interesting because I like to see the ongoings inside the studio (how they react to the mic position, their awareness of little details that only matter to the radio, the studio itself, and mannerisms that will change my listening experience in the future).

Even with WHAR videos. Is it really "cool" that some kid ate a pet shark, got piss poured on his face, or got darts thrown at them?

Okay, it is.

But still, the highlight to the pet shark video for me is seeing myself try to mic the chewing noises. I'm actually more disappointed in the old videos, because I gotta see my fat face. Couldn't I have lost the weight a year earlier?

The El Jefe memory bin video above means a helluva lot more than 400 views to me, because I've heard this guy reference the silly bin for years. To see those dreadlocks is just surreal. The only thing missing is the "first condom" that Shaffee references in the video, though my own vision of that discolored thing probably trumps the actual visual.

I am feeling slightly disappointed in We Hit & Run in its current state. Though from one perspective I look at the recent shows with a shock that they're of similar quality as mid 2008, I also feel like radio/podcasting should be more than talking. It should be an event! Ongoing storylines are the base of any good show. I don't feel like we're executing in that department either. Every Saturday night I leave satisfied, so I can continue with this phase in the show... but I would like it to reach its full potential at some point. I feel like that can only happen if its done five days a week.

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Ahead of the curve.

I cannot wait to get back to Chicago.

It's been just about five months, and I feel like this could last a long time. I keep waiting for the other side to show itself, like every relationship inevitably does. But, as of now, there has been one true fight, and I have no problem blaming it on the alcohol (accidental song reference, but I didn't fix it so I deserve to be purged like a livejournal or Jedi). I can't even START a fight. The only thing that seems to irk her is when I say things like

"I keep waiting for the other side to show itself, like every relationship inevitably does."

I love her, her family, and her city. Three things I've hated about every girlfriend I've ever had (especially "her"). I still long for the new japanese Velma! I can't help it!



I seriously stare at this girl for half my work day.

I imagine what people like Daniel Gron would think if they heard Kevin vs. Hannah. Then I wonder what people who didn't (even if just for a few, obsessive weeks) love my show would think if they heard it.

I realize that a lot of personal things are on the show, like how I give babies autism, but some of them are still worth bringing up here.

Ahhh ohhh.